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Well, I don’t really know what I’m thinking right now! Just felt like writing something in my blog at this very moment! I want to record how I feel now! Suddenly I felt quite lonely now!

How can a friendship like “you’re close now and the next second things go the opposite way?” this is kind of ridiculous to me but when time passed, I’m now used to the feeling. But do you agree that whenever you felt like giving up something/someone, then he/she will suddenly come to you and chat or did something that make you thought that there’s still hopes and chances? I always had such feelings. But these feelings won’t last because he/she will disappear again for some time.

I’m agree with a horoscope book that I’ve read somewhere in MPH I think. It described Libra and I think that I’m really a Libran. It explained that a Libran is always friendly and can mixed around real fast but once they were close to you, they will start to draw a line or I should said that I’ll avoid from him/her. I can explain why I’m being like that! it’s because after I really understand about a friend, I’ll start to observe what she/he likes and what he/she dislikes so I’ll try my best not to do or say something that could touches their nerves! But sooner I’ll find it difficult for myself, because I’ve to think thoroughly before doing/saying something so I’ll prefer to be quiet or avoid from having too much communication with that person! I think maybe I’m just bit lazy to entertain different characters from different persons.

Basically I’m a very blunt person but yet I can be real sarcastic too. Depends on who I’m facing and how I feel during that very moment. When I met someone that I dislike and he/she keeps on bark at me, I’ll shoot him/her until he/she is afraid of me. Something that I think that is wrong or unreasonable then I’ll voice out my opinion. But when I’m facing someone that wouldn’t listen or those never admit or something la then I’ll prefer to keep my mouth shut! To avoid from any conflict with others, I chose to be quiet and become a listener. My mom always complained that I’m having very inner and passive or somehow she described me as ‘kera sumbang’ just simply because I don’t want to entertain too much. Sometimes, I even felt boring and lazy to entertain some of my cousins. I hate attending family gathering or something because people around were like damn sarcastic and teasing each other. If we’re a family, then what’s the point of being sarcastic? To me, family means they were my closest creatures in this world so I wont think too much of what I should say or what I shouldn’t. Maybe I’m just bit too blunt or I’m not supposed to live in this world!