Loneliness Overwhelmed!!

my recent updates

2011-03-10T06:13:00.000+08:00

dearest blog, I've abandoned you long ago! wanted to write about my life since the previous blog but i noticed it was long ago and a lot had happened and i'm very lazy to type it out [you can see how lazy I am right?]

just wanna express my feeling over here. Even if you see with your own eyes you'll still don't believe it. but why? some said when we see something happened means its already proven for its existence but why still we tried to ignore all these？ human are ignorant perhaps. if this thing never ever happened then I would say how happy everyone would be.

please don't ever try to force yourself into accepting something beyond your expectation. give yourself some times to digest the whole thing. getting self busy with some other stuffs might be useful but is still didn't help when it come to the feeling deep buried in your heart and mind. it will ache with you touched that place. why you wanna put yourself in such a painful situation? don't wanna hurt anyone around so you choose to sacrifice yourself and kept hurting yourself.

no one will thank you for what you've done. it won't help no matter how! perhaps letting go is the best way, don't try to act as if it got nothing to do with you and without and effects but actually whatever it is, its still there. you never say anything but people around will sense it. treat yourself better please. you deserved that! I hate looking at myself because i'm so helpless that Iｃｏｕｌｄｎ＇ｔ　do anything. what i could do is just acting and let the time do his job. give me some hints pls.

last but not least, I'll be back to hometown in just 2 months time, please pray hard that within this period nothing will happen again after that tragic accident that took away my senior's life. RIP to them. finally I find a phrase very true, you'll never know what might happen in the next minute so please please treasure the loved one around you now starting from this very second!!

end

I'm back~~

2010-12-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

hihi friends i'm officially back to my own home!!!
wanted to meet some friends but still a lot i haven't meet yet!!!
but soon i'll return to Labuan!
hahaahah.... nothing more to write...

me me me

2010-11-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

wahsei, studies really very pressure!

seriously i need hair flow control shampoo! who wanna sponsor?

life during study week and final exam

2010-11-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

hey, after a long break finally I'm back to my blog!
during this two weeks, my life are like zombie, because I slept only about 3 hours a day rushing to prepare myself for the final exam.

after stepping into the university for few months, this is the first time we have a final exam that begins today! First day was terrible because I'm very nervous. why? because I've been lazying around from the beginning until now! haha.. what to do? don't have the feeling of facing any books except for FACEBOOK-ing. haha.

By the way, 13 days to go and I'll be in Teluk Intan! My lovely and sweet hometown. Can't imagine what i will be after 13 days. Growing fatter for sure because I will fill in my stomach with foods every minutes and seconds! Hope to see everyone that I want to see! hehe... mommy, I missed you badly.

心情

2010-11-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

咳，该如何开始呢？很想说其实我还是很在乎与在意你的存在！哈哈。
没人能理解我这一种心情但我很想发泄~
原来误会可以被无限的放大~我想化掉误会，你说行吗？
或者我应该就此停止？？
有人告诉过我误会不化解会越滚越大。嘻嘻
是真的吗？
你能当面告诉我吗？
我需要你时，你却不出现！
不如你能正面地说我们已经结束？

瞎猜的生活好不容易！距离真的是一种问题？

birthday celebration

2010-10-25T17:14:00.000+08:00

now only i realized that I've left out two birthday celebration over here. The first one is on the 12th October 2010, Miss Khoo Li Wen birthday. she said that she don't wanna celebrate it grandly but at last we brought her to McD in the airport for lunch!

it's kinda happening and funny when I recalled it back. I thought she was in the campus and she thought that I'm in the hostel but at last we're vice-versa.
what a funny situation because it was like a surprise small celebration for her la, hope that she will be HAPPY! haha...

then the 2nd one will be Miss Nio Liong Yan Yee! haha. her birthday was another happening because it was really a true and big surprise to her! we need to climb up to the 4th floor which was very very tiring for me! OMG> tired...

oh yeah, forgot to mention that i'm near to blind nowadays. why? then I will said I don't understand why either. maybe i should go for a check-up once i'm back to TI for the sem break! haigh, where can find back the study mood that I've lost long ago? anyone had a compass to lend it to me so that i can find it back? haha...

someone said that actually memories are hard to erase. is it so? I think the answer is 'yes'! I have another question, Why do God created male and female with different born to be characteristics? I think this will be a big big question mark for most of the people around! hahaha....

down

2010-10-16T13:55:00.000+08:00

this few days my mood is the same as the weather in Labuan.
it is very sunny during but during night it becomes dark and windy!
today i felt my hostel is very quiet. some of malay housemates went to town.

when i woke up, i saw a note sticking on the table and its from my roommate, Seok Yi. she told me that she will not be home tonight because she's going for canoe expedition to Pulau Kuraman. this is her co-curricular practical test so I wished her Good Luck for her test together with Ning Huey.

that means tonight i will be sleeping alone in this room. but obviously I'm not afraid of loneliness! haha... out of sudden, I cried in the bus last night. If you were to ask me why? my answer is, I dont know. just suddenly had the urge and the tears just rolled down my cheek. life can be very short. within this month, our MUET teacher passed away and in this week, my junior in my high school passed away due to accident. he's going to face STPM exam soon but he haven't got the chance to step into the hall yet then he's gone. hope he can RIP.

final exam is coming real soon! not more than a month! my accounting I'm really dying. see, my midterm i GOT C for account. How stupid. Business maths i get B+ only. i wanted to score better in final but it seems very hard because the last chapter is Calculus! differentiation and integration are driving me crazy honestly! I hate myself for being so stupid towards MATHS! I couldn't imagine that after two years life without maths, and now I still have to face my biggest fear, MATHS!

oh god, still couldn't believe that my uni life so fast already going to finish a semester out of 6 semesters! I'm going back on the 20th of November 2010!!!!! yes... mom, wait for me! I'll be back to celebrate '冬节＇　with you! I love you and missed you badly too. friends, stay tune for my return! 20th Nov will be the return of CHY to west m'sia! haha...

finally today i found something that i wanted to look for after few months searching! haha.. quite surprising that I accidentally found it! maybe i should have found it earlier but until today only i found it. after finding this thing, i started to find out that actually things are not like the way i see it! and currently I'm learning to treat everyone the same way without any prejudice around! without realizing, I'm already in this small island for more than 3 months and I passed my first birthday in this small island with my friends. Thanks for the surprise and the meal prepared by you girls! LOve it, couldnt imagine that you all actually prepared for all that! although the outcome is not so perfect but still honestly, I APPRECIATE the hard works from you girls. I accept it with 100% gratitude!

2 weeks raya break!

2010-09-12T11:32:00.000+08:00

well, now is still in the Raya break but still I didn't get to go back to my hometown! but staying in Labuan is consider as quite comfortable here.

oh yeah, I just came back from Kota Kinabalu! Went there for 3 days 2 nights but spent most of the times in the ferry express! this trip quite nice actually and I felt that it strengthen the bond among six of us! haha.. I heart all my roommates for this trip! but something funny that during night times, we're all doing different things. Yan yee, ginny and I were busy playing cards! especially the so called 'turtle' game! IT's some sort like the Old Maid game that i used to play since i'm kids! haha..

but honestly, i spent a lot in this trip for the foods! after coming to labuan, I'm already immune to nice foods! very hard to find foods as i'm still craving for very very nice foods! haha.... this time ferry is just so shaky because of the waves are quite strong i guess. haha. all of them also seasick except for me. still manage to sms inside the cabin and looked at the scenery around! some even told me that they still felt it when they came back last night! hopes that they felt better this morning!

last week I ate chicken curry and seaweed soup! NICE and FANTASTIC!

teardrops on my pillow

2010-08-27T09:21:00.007+08:00

hey friends, I already forgotten this is the fifth or sixth weeks I came to Labuan. But all I remembered is, I cried two nights ago!

first time ever that I cried in Labuan! Let me think why did my tears dropped on that night, first I think I missed my mom very much out of sudden. She called me the other day and told me that she missed my voice! How sad I am when i heard she said to me. I knew that she missed me a lot and so do I!

Never realized that it is so suffering for just listening to each others' voice and it seems so near yet so far! And I think I did badly in my Financial Management test 1. But I told myself that I'll surely do better in the upcoming test!

Today i woke up at 6 sth just to start revising my account! This is so far the weakest subject to me but I'm still working hard on it although I don't really like it but still I'm forced to do so because I don't wanna disappoint my mom! But it seems so stupid to cry right? but recently a lot of friends around me are counting down to the day where they're going back to hometown. how i wished that I could fly back to west Malaysia and hug my mom once I saw her !

just felt so down and reluctant whenever my friends' topic are about going back to hometown but this holiday i'm going over to KK for a short trip with my friends! I knew it would be fine to travel with you girls! haha. today I'll be having economic test again but I knew it would be another way round compared to the first test because that was just my luck to score in test 1. this time i think i won't score anymore!

Last but not least, I would like to say happy belated birthday to my beloved friend, WONG MEI KIT who are currently in KL fighting for her new future there! Girl, missed you badly! love ya..

Miss CHang Fui Han!!!!!!!

Another thing i would like to add on, Happy birthday to you too! CHANG FUI HAN, today is your birthday so you appeared in my post today! I hope that you'll enjoy your day ya! Get to know you is something I felt happy and proud with! you always lighten up my day!

justice!

2010-08-08T12:25:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. today my post will be very unhappy!
i want to complain why must we being surrounded by 'angels on the earth'?
i want the real angels from the heaven. please let them be away from me!
justice, this word is so just irony to me! It didn't happen before in this rural island!

i spent one month in Sabah and all I get is injustice! Even in the class itself i could feel it so much. Can they stay in their room and don't come out from the room? I also need to study and do homework. Not only the four of you need to finish up the tutorial or even assignments! Can you all please be considerate a bit?

Why always my roommate and I are the one to give way? I hate it so much when it came to this. my life is just so miserable once i stepped into the house after class everyday. haigh... i need to find a place for me to study and do homework. anyone have good suggestions for me?

going to have small test soon!

2010-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

hey friends, I'll make this posts sounds happier! because this whole week I'm quite satisfied with it although it was kind of stupid and tired. Our campus organized a stupid program named Jom-Ceria where I can't any purpose of doing it!

even the name itself sounds stupid! But at least it was something memorable for us because we have group photo! And finally, I went to beach opposite our campus! So long never been to seaside! So happy yelling and kicking the water. but the time is limited so I think I planned to go again next time!

Anyhow, I would like to say that actually Labuan is a great place for study! Because it got 0 distraction over here! haha. but still sometimes it's too boring! Let me show you some nice view in Labuan and also how i enjoyed going to the seaside...

荒岛上的我

2010-07-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

at first, I thought of typing my blog in chinese but after few sentences, I gave up. better stick to my actual language, english.
this is already the third week i'm in this small island.

so far, nothing much about this place because it will still be the same and boring complaints. but today I realized that I'll actually face the problem of emotional breakdown too! Assignments are piling up in front of me yet I'm still in the relaxing mood! What a great student I am! seriously I need someone to talk with, but unfortunately I can't anyone free to listen to me. All my 'ji muis' seems very busy with their daily works. Even my own sister seems busy too and did not really bother to talk to me.

I know that i'm no longer a kids that need everyone's attention or someone to comfort but at least treat me as a human with feelings. I came all the way so far to a very strange place and yet I need to face everything on my own! Can't even find a better way to express myself! Am i torturing myself? I hate the feeling of emotional breakdown because it spoiled my mood thoroughly!
life in Uni isn't as fun as I thought it would be because it's way too far from my hometown. I'm feeling that the gap between Labuan and TI are growing every second! I couldn't get use to the distance yet.
Whatever I wanted to do is like something impossible because of that particular word, 'distance'!

how I wished I could travel through space in just 3 minutes to reach TI from Labuan. then I'll meet my mom every day whenever I like! I came here for about a month but it gave me a feeling that I've been here for at least 3 months! Maybe God wants me to learn more and to be tougher in facing obstacles. I'm really trying hard in getting used to the surroundings. just that at least I'm glad that I've a gang of new friends that can click quite well with me currently.

the heaviness of studying here is not just on the courses that I need to take but the biggest challenge is the life without water supply! last night I went under the rain just to carry a pail of water up to our house. What else that I need to do on my own? Almost everything!

finally I've found the mood to sleep now after expressing all out! I need friends but it seems too far yet too near here. TI, I'll be back in 4 months time.

first week of class started

2010-07-17T21:13:00.000+08:00

well, already first week I spent in this campus to further my study.
Still doesn't believe that I've stepped into University~
But it isn't something easy to reach until this level. Gone through a lot
of ups and downs until I'm emotionally breakdowns for several times
but at last I managed to overcome every single tests given by God.

this first week, I'm very busy adapting myself to the new surroundings and the atmosphere of studying.
assignments are queuing up waiting for me to solve it~
kept forming groups for assignments.
should I go back this September?
my friends here are not going back but they're planning for trips to ppl's hometown.
I think I spent the most here is for dinner because I've decided to enjoy at least a meal here which i think I'm satisfied with but tonight the fried rice is just so bad!
things here isn't cheap especially foods! Seriously anyone wanna recommend nice Chinese foods to me in Labuan?

but I'm glad that I got to know a whole bunch of nice friends here! We gathered every evening at 6.30 pm and together we go for our dinner somewhere nearby. We walked from our hostel to the restaurants nearby for our dinner and for sure it will be more than 6 persons every night! Even the boss are surprised to see such a big number of people walked into his shops!

that's all for this week so far! maybe I'll continue again after the second week~ stay tuned for my next updates~

my orientation week and life in Labuan

2010-07-13T16:18:00.000+08:00

well friends, first of all I would like to tell everyone that I'm in Labuan now!
everything seems to be on the track right now but I don't know how would it be after few months where I'm facing assignments and exams soon!

let me tell you about my experience throughout this two weeks in East Malaysia! All I get is, free dieting because ever since I reached Kota Kinabalu, I didn't take in any full meal because the rice they provided are too 'nice' to be swallowed! good! I'm stuck here at the first few days but I'm glad that things are now settled down and I'm getting used to it!

something I'm very happy with is, I'm not afraid of cockroach anymore! The first day i reached Labuan my first assigned job was to kill the cockroaches around because one of my friend are very afraid of cockroach but I find it funny because I thought that I'm the only one but actually it's not.

my roommate was someone that can be considered as funny I guess but only at times. I was doing all the talking most of the times but is better compared to someone that does not give any respond. she came from the same hometown as me but we're taking different courses.

something I'm glad and proud of is my homesick is getting lesser and lesser! but the problem I'm facing currently are my studies! I find it so unfamiliar with my syllabus now. especially maths because I've officially returned every single knowledge taught in high school. I'm trying hard to recall everything in modern maths but I'll still try my best to do better!

this coming september I'm having two weeks raya break but most probably I won't be back to TI because of the expensive air tickets! SO don't come and bark on me if I didnt go back this holiday but I'll definitely show up this end year sem break! I missed every single things in TI. 3F's that I wanted the most, families, friends and foods!

oh yeah, forgot to say about the international students that came to our university to further their study~ I think it would be difficult for them to be in Malaysia because here mostly everyone were talking in BM but at least at here I can practice my Chinese so that I can chat with them if possible to do so.

i will end my post here la. lazy wanna type d!

the Karate Kid

2010-06-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

I'll rate 8/10 for this movie!
Just like Jaden Smith. So cute!
and The girl actress Wenwen Han as MEI YING!!!!

Wow, hanging clothes will help you in
Kung Fu!
And it's entertaining with them although
at last raining heavily!
good outing going to cinema!

latest!

2010-06-09T13:00:00.000+08:00

How should I begin huh?
Okay, let's begin with my trip to KL having some problems
and that's why I'm still stuck in TI.
But just forget about it.

Let's say that I'm not so doing well recently.
having problems with my computer!

finding a person to help me to sort out the problems!
oh yeah, went to Ipoh La Salle Centre with Ying and Alvix.
that was a surprising journey with
frogs calling for rain!

before i forget, I'm still waiting for that stupid UPU result
that's so torturing for waiting!
Just don't know where I'll be next month onwards?
going to Sabah?
girls and guys, do remember me always though i'm going
too far away!

random

2010-05-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

how should I start off? I've abandoned my blog for few weeks or months i guess. Recently, my daily routine is just so so boring until I think I could die of boredom the next second.

I went for morning walk every morning at 7. the fresh air early in the morning is just so good! maybe some of you out there should sacrifice part of your sleeping time and get some fresh air out there!

For your info, I'm still stuck in my hometown and am still waiting for my IPTA application. And this is so far the most torturing period. waiting for an answer from the government takes about 4 months?

Have been watching all older series like Healing Hands 1 and File of Justice. Couldn't believe that I'm that boring right? But since this Monday, I've got new past time! Watching The Mysteries of Love starred Raymond Lam and Tavia Yeung.

Oh yeah, wanted to tell my friends that Mystery Case Files got new version and I'm currently playing! This time it's something new and strange! Very challenging!

Lastly, my friend and I will be having a great night this weekend! Someone's birthday coming up!

Bye, blog readers. Love ya.

happy happy happy

2010-04-18T11:36:00.000+08:00

well, I'll just let picture do the roles!　 Just to lazy to type!

deep inside

2010-04-09T12:58:00.000+08:00

Let me start off with how the title of my post came from.
All this while I kept everything within myself or just my diary perhaps?
But recently I've blurted out a few incident that I thought that
it should be buried deep six feet under ground.
That night, I slept sweetly and soundly until the next day.
Relieved and relaxed!

Oh yeah, the things (secret) that I've once doubted finally
proved that I'm right.

But before I knew about it,
I hoped that I'm wrong.

the feelings is just so weird and
I'm damn struggling about the truth!

Khalil Fong (方大同)'s TIMELESS Concert Live in Malaysia

2010-03-31T17:33:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm consider as a fans of him
so when Meikit told me he was coming then I'm
thinking should I go?
I've missed Raymond's in Genting last year.
So regret for it but I know I'll sure go if he comes again or maybe I go to Hong Kong?

I need to ask Kit later about it. Or even ask my sis since she's kinda likes him too.

Anyone interested in joining me?

memories...

2010-03-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

well, Last night Kit and Chew came to my house and

both of them inspired me of scanning all the old photos!!!

I'm going to show you guys the pictures...
Be prepared to see our innocent

and

FUNNY pictures...

results

2010-02-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

Overall, my results were consider as quite
nice and I'm 80% satisfied with it!!
thanks for all the supports!!!

Confirmed from The Stars Online!

2010-02-20T20:06:00.001+08:00

2009 STPM results to be out on Thursday

KUALA LUMPUR: The 2009 Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) will be announced on Thursday.
The Malaysian Examinations Council (MEC), in a statement here yesterday, said candidates can obtain their results at their respective schools from noon that day, while private candidates would get their results by post.
Candidates can also check their results through the short messaging service (SMS) by typing STPM (space) followed by identity card number and sending to 36363, or by typing STPM result (space) followed by identity card number and sending to 15888.
They can also check their results by surfing the MEC website at http://www.mpm.edu.my from noon on Thursday.
A media conference on the analysis of the examination results will be held on the same day at 11.30am at the MEC office, Persiaran 1, Bandar Baru Selayang, Batu Caves in Selangor.
Last year, 52,348 candidates sat for the examination.
They comprised 47,260 or 90.28% government school candidates, 1,747 (3.34%) private school candidates and 3,241 (6.38%) private candidates. — Bernama

a part of me is rotting

2010-02-13T12:40:00.000+08:00

明天就是大年初一，但是现在的我心情超乱
成绩很快就要被公布了。
说不怕都是骗人的。

我懂就算现在有多么担心也是白费，因为一切已经成为了定局。
我不怕失败，可是我最怕的是，

令我的家人失望。

长了这么大，都不成令家人感到有我这个孩子是一件很光荣的事情！
我很希望我能让他们感到骄傲！
突然浮现的这一种感觉压得我很紧。
想找个人谈谈，可是朋友们应该在为新年做好准备！

两年前的成绩单令我感到超后悔。。　我只是想能讨到入进大学的资格！
不想看到妈妈为我的未来而操心。
‘ 这未免想太多了 ’ 。这句话是我姐之前告诉我的。
很想念他。因为只有他能在此时此刻分享我的感受！！！

news for all STPM students year 2009

2010-02-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

I got the news from my friend saying that our results will be announced on the 24th February 2010! Which means about ten days after first day of Chinese New Year!

I'm so shocked to see that message from my friend, Kit. I already heard of this news few weeks ago but just didn't really bother but now it seems JUST TOO NEAR! should I wish everyone happy chinese new year? Or better with Good Luck at the back of the wishes??

Anyway, I hope the best for all my schoolmates that's taking STPM 2009... The exam is already over and nothing can be changed, so I'm learning to take it easy and wait for that particular day to come! yay....

right now, right here

2009-12-14T16:33:00.000+08:00

At this moment, I realized that time flies damn fast!

2009 is coming to the end already not to forget, CHRISTMAS

is the next coming celebration!

What's next? 2009 is waving and chasing us away while 2010 is

waiting for us happily! Throw away

all the unfortunate in 2009 and BRING only the good ones

to 2010~ What happened before, is history while tomorrow is still a Mystery to all of us!

i want to use up my time wisely

before I actually start working at January 2010!

I wanted to go for backpacking but I think got to be

postponed due to some obstacles rises.

I want to go for shopping!

Just now, i went to TF Value Mart and I saw

a LOT of school shoes, bags, stockings

and everything related to schools!

after 13 years of schooling,

FINALLY I doesn't need to wear

uniform to school again.

My school life ended!!!!
I actually miss the feeling of going to school

early in the morning.....

Starts wondering what else waiting outside?

Soon we're going to a new place meeting new people and new culture! That's how new memory comes into our mind.

human's brain is so complicated which

we can store up to tonnes of happenings

even if that happened during childhood life!!!!!

I hope to celebrate Christmas and New Year

WITH my beloved family and

FRIENDS around!!!

recent

2009-12-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

Last two days, I went out for a crazy gathering!

Although there were just 5 of us but we're extremely

crazy! laughing all the while and thanks to Chew again!

We took some nice photos but it were with

Miss Mei Kit!

We even went for supper by the drain or roadside!

Eating Laksa at the roadside? This was the second time

I was eating like that but the first time was kind of lonely because

I'm only with Chew and Rene but last Friday night,

was with Kit, Ink, Wen and Chew.

Laughed a lot that night and discovered some LAME jokes from CHew!!!!!

I'm back

2009-12-11T17:33:00.001+08:00

Well, I just finish my STPM!
anyway, I think this exam is so tiring

Damn exhausted!

I just came back from the cinema to watch Storm Warrior 2!
the storyline is so-so...
But the effect was quite amazing!
the surround just a bit TOO loud!
my ears almost burst!

haha...
will update more soon!!!

hiatus

2009-11-07T11:54:00.000+08:00

this blog will be on hiatus! because I'm very very busy and don't have plenty times to update! sorry! after my STPM then I'll update again!

BIG BIG SURPRISE!!!

2009-10-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

well, just now I was so shocked with

a news that got into my ears!

I was having my dinner and the moment I saw the message,

my mouth open to it's ~~maximum state~~ [hiperbola].

Even I think it might just stuck there forever!

this world is just TOO small!

couldn't get that out of my mind till now!

A great WOW!!!!

Mid-Autumn Celebration!

2009-10-04T13:07:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!
Yesterday was Mid-Autumn Festival so I held

a small party at my house during Friday night. I asked

my friends to come and also relatives.

We really enjoyed the party whole night and thanks to Miss Chew

a.k.a 'Miss Chi Ma Kan'...

laughed till stomach pain!
Then last night i Played Lantern alone then at

11 something Bee Koon asked me over to

her house to play lantern with her siblings

so i went there till 12 something!

Let me show you some pictures! haha...

*some pictures is with Kit and B Koon

Well.. Well.. Happy birthday to myself!

2009-09-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

Hello, my dear blog readers!
yesterday was my BIG BIG day!!

But my celebration started on 24th Sept with Kerene, Mei Ying, Vennesa, Poh Sheen and Evelyn! the celebration was brought forward due to our Miss Mying and Kerene were busy yesterday.

So I'm kind of surprise and happy

but I just doesn't know how to express

myself!

I received a lot of birthday wishes

and at the beginning of my birthday, almost 1.30 AM,

i had a ~~bigger surprise~~ because 4 fellows

came to my house and sang

happy birthday song LOUDLY at the compound!

even neighbours woke up to see what happened!

Thanks to them all and also MY JI MUIS that celebrated

with me and their cute cute small mooncake!

Now, i just felt like playing lanterns la.

anyone wanna join?

Well, thanks to Mei Ying for giving a BIG ANG POW!

Lastly, I really hope my birthday wishes will ALL COME TRUE!!
*pictures with Kit they all need to take from her later.

something happy and nice

2009-09-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

Well, my world suddenly becomes bright in a sudden!
No special reason....

Happy birthday in advance to me!

Xuen's birthday Celebration

2009-09-22T13:14:00.000+08:00

well, Sunday was Pui Xuen's birthday, 20th September so around 5 something, I received a message from Mei Yen informing about the celebration so after the wedding dinner I had, I quickly rush over for the birthday celebration. Looking at the cake that they bought for Xuen reminds me of my cake last year.

haha... My birthday is coming soon. I couldn't imagine what it would be this year! Maybe just celebrate with my families!

I'm back

2009-09-18T11:35:00.000+08:00

Well, my trial haven't end yet because I still have one paper going on.
Yesterday it was Mei Ying's birthday so we actually celebrated on Wednesday.

It was a surprise party for her so it turned out to be real surprising for her as she was yelling and jumping once she saw Evelyn and Kevin they all.
I can sense that she was really happy for what we did for her.
Finally, I get to play with her nephew, Ethan! He's just 14 months old but he was extremely cute and clever!

All of US loves to play with him..

Somehow during the birthday celebration, i was thinking about something which distracted my attention from the group there. Maybe the birthday girl will know what I'm thinking about.

Lastly, I'm very sorry to Mei Ying because of the stupid TRIAL so I got no time to buy you any present yet! But i'll do that when I'm free, okay?

well, I would like to wish my bro, Ryan, my so-called twins, Joanne Kwek 'happy birhday'!!! Love ya!!!!

Bitter tea

2009-08-31T20:00:00.002+08:00

well, last few days because i'm sick
so Mei Ying they all suggested that i shall
go for bitter tea!

so after studying in public library, I was in Evelyn's car and heading
towards the herbs tea stall somewhere in town la.
after we purchased the tea, we went to fetch Kerene

Inside Poh Sheen's car, i finished the whole pack of bitter tea which was
very hard to swallow! It's so much bitter compared to bitter gourd!
I nearly vomit! Luckily i didn't vomit or else Pou's car will be full
of bitter tea's smell! But the next day I really felt better and my voice become louder!

But now, I'm still coughing as if I have TB and sore throat is still around
Maybe I'll consider to have another glass of bitter tea
tomorrow after school. I'm suffering real hard for this stupid TRIAL!

my health is so weak! which now my chest is so pain due to
too much coughing I guess.
Even my family was afraid of em spreading virus all over the house!
Eww.....
GOD BLESS ME!!!

*first time having whole glass of bitter tea in my life

Sick

2009-08-28T00:33:00.003+08:00

well, I'm again ill!
why 2009 I'm so miserable and being surrounded by all stupid things!
Sick all the while ever since mid-year till now!
my mom also felt it's weird!
I can't have curry chicken, and any other fried-foods!
I'm having bad sore throat and cough
I can't swallow food!

Shit. without realizing the time is passing real fast!
faster than a lightning so much!
Time is speeding like I'm dying the next day!
Shit

happy birthday to you

2009-08-26T14:35:00.002+08:00

yesterday was mei kit's birthday but i posted it today because i'm sick yesterday
this was the very first year where I couldn't celebrate her birthday
such a thing happened which I never ever imagined that it happened on me
so pathetic yet true.

yesterday was a real bad day to me.
couldn't do something which i wanted to do so much
and I'm having sore throat!
now even worse. I could hardly speaks
After all, i wanted to tell out of my lungs!

Happy Birthday To You!

revision

2009-08-24T18:09:00.002+08:00

I honestly i didn't prepare well for this coming TRIAL!
I'm dying looking into those books
because something shouldn't appear had made it's appearance!

I thought the feelings were buried deep enough
but it didn't turn out to be what i thought!
I wanted to get rid of this problem!

Someone please teach me or guide me!
please kind enough to tell me your method through my c-box!

STPM! shit.... Sijil Tunggu Pergi Mati.
i'm mati-ing soon!

Sasti 19th Presidential Installation

2009-08-22T13:45:00.004+08:00

yesterday was the official day
where the out-going board of directors
successfully passed over the board to the newly
installed directors.

i hope they will form a great team and
enjoy servicing to the society and our schools as well!
ALL THE BEST

I didn't take any picture with my mobile phone so just show
you the video that i recorded!

Out-Going B.O.D performance by
Mei Kit, Phei Wen, Sin Ink,
May Lyn and Kit Yeng
[brought a lot of our memories to me]

In-Coming B.O.D performance by
Vennesa + Wesley, Mei Ying + Raymond, Poh Sheen + Meng Teck
Jia Wen + Teik Leong!

enjoy watching...

Hannah Montana

2009-08-03T19:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday I went to watch Hannah Montana with Mei Ying
this show was aired long ago but now only Teluk Intan's cinema starts airing.
this show was a nice show because it was a happy ending.

Kind of envy Miley Cyrus because Travis is so cute!
haha.... Ying and watched some kind of love story together?
so funny.. both girls!!!!

Just getting use to my life now!
Love ya everyone.
anyone want to teach me studying skills?

2009-07-27T23:10:00.004+08:00

词：Abel
曲：Aquila朱玮心
唱：Min黄毓敏

传闻你和他的相遇
听说是多么美丽
而我的存在是多余

*听得太多也累了
我们之间也完了
别再继续纠缠不清

我不能放弃自己去讨好你
那不是我自己
如果你爱她就别再错下去

我不像你想像中的那么脆弱
分手已成了定局
在他发现之前忘了你

Repeat *

就为了我的名誉
就为了你的秘密
就请别让她哭泣

我不能放弃自己去讨好你
那不是我自己
如果你爱她就别再错下去

我不像你想像中的那么脆弱
分手是我的决定
在他发现之前忘了你
分离已是最好的结局

*actually I like the song composer Aquila. Her songs' were all touching and meaningful though she's just a participant in this composing competition alongside with the Star Quest!

The Most Bad Luck I Ever Had in Life So Far

2009-07-24T17:46:00.004+08:00

today... something bad happened to me! is real bad. As usual i went to school early in the morning as today was Friday. Early in the morning, it was raining cats and dogs!! So it was so cold that I need to wear a jacket.

Okay, in the class I was the only one inside because some of my classmates went to rehearsal for prize giving competition..

here come the part that I'm so damn bad luck...

I walked out of the school with Ai Leng because I promised to fetch her to Just To Eat to buy bread. Then Mei Kit rushed over to me, and she kinda nervous. So, this was what exactly she told me : "Ah Cheah, your car's window cracked already!"

Then my respond was, "Hur? I'm so bad luck? Then I thought could it be side mirror?"

When we walked out of the school gate, then Ai Leng told me it was the BACK MIRROR that cracked!! The whole piece cracked. Oh my god!! I'm depressed lor. Why must all the unfortunate stuffs happened on me! I'm like hell this few weeks!

Then Phei Wen they all stopped by and concern whether I need help a not. After I called my sister, she came and said just drive back la. She shut the door quite hard so the whole piece of mirror shattered! And I got a small cut on my hand when I'm retrieving my bag from the back seat. So this was the whole happenings why I said that I'm so damn unlucky! I really need to do something with it.!!! but still I'm glad that when the glass shattered, Mei Kit they all went back already cause I'm kinda worry that it might hurt anyone of them which I really don't want it to happen!

DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!

**thanks to them[Mei Kit they all] and Ai Leng for staying with me under the hot sun so long

My recent life

2009-07-22T18:49:00.002+08:00

well this week in school I've been walking around for the photography session.
I would like to thank Miss Agatha Lim Shiang Lynn that came back
to TI purposely to accompany me!

today I'm so damn unlucky cause I'm 'stick' to the toilet bowl as in
my stomach was turning upside down!
I got to drive all the way home
in such a condition.....

That's so torturing and I'm forced to take photo
for Majlis Ketua Tingkatan
under the hot sun and middle of the field!
That's so HOT and I'm nearly cooked!
Well, that's all for today!!!!!

2009-07-19T13:52:00.002+08:00

life is like a drama
full of ups and downs
you'll never know what might happened the next second
friends come and go eventually

i hated myself few days ago
but the care that my friends poured on me
melted my thinking and my mind
you guys walked into my dark life with a huge spotlight
which led me to somewhere brighter

you can't ask me to forget that soon
I'm wrong in somewhere i guess which
it causes all the chaos in my life
but i would really appreciate those that
tried to walk into my dim and dull life

suddenly i remembered about a phrase that you guys told me
'never ever worried about what is going to happen tomorrow
you already had enough worries for today'
even now i wanted to thank my sister too for
accompanying me and tried hard to stay at home with me

i really wanted to stand on my feet again
i was someone that would face all the obstacles strongly
but this time it was another way round
i totally collapse over it
i can't find any way to get out of it
but I'm sure with you guys' help
I'll be able to go through this real soon
all i needed is time!

LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!!

dedicated to special friends

2009-07-18T15:34:00.003+08:00

thanks for everything!
without you all
i meant nothing

random

2009-07-16T16:17:00.002+08:00

it seems peaceful all this days,
but there's always something that pierce directly into my heart
you gave me strength
courage
concerns
and everything
but you left me without a single word

i fight,
i cry,
i yell,
but you'll never look back

i screwed up my life
without aim and
i lost the humanity in me
gone with the wind that you blow to me

Wanted real hard to be strong
but it seems I'm just too weak compared to you
Tried to be a human
Tried to be invincible
Tried to love myself

you kill with your coolness
your ignorant
your behaviour
even your scent

*I believe losing is gaining as well...

MUET results

2009-07-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

finally I've got my MUET results!!!!! i only need four marks to reach Band 5!!!!
OMG
so sad... but I'm meaningless due to something...
some even asked me to retake...

try for a Band 5!!!!

幽默的信息

2009-07-06T21:13:00.003+08:00

今晚突然在我开始感觉无聊的时，
我收到了一封简讯。。。
是爱玲传给我的。。。。
内容满好笑的

＂是不是一直没心情读书呢？
教你一招, 首先揾块境对住自己狂照，
照下照下，
你就会觉得，　＂哗，＂＂长的将样衰，　不读书仲可以做什么？
个阵时你就会发奋了！！！！＂＂

Jo Venn's birthday!!

2009-06-28T13:16:00.003+08:00

yesterday we went to Old Town to celebrate Jo's birthday...
there's two big surprises for her...
will upload pictures later.. bye...

too soft hearted!!!! meaningful....

2009-06-10T19:59:00.001+08:00

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强

夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来

finally updated something

2009-06-09T13:31:00.002+08:00

Hi my dear readers, this post is dedicated to Miss Agatha again.....

I know I had abandoned my blog for weeks but
really nothing special for me to post about.........

but recently I'm quite crazy for badminton again.
In a week time, i went for badminton for 5 DAYS!!!!!

now, my waist and muscles were all over exercised!!!!
extremely pain and i can't even bend my waist....

that's so torturing... when i drive, i have to sit up
straight....

tonight i'm planning to go for a movie with Kit Shyen...
Hope that she can make it tonight!!

:P

Steamboat

2009-05-30T11:20:00.004+08:00

yesterday night i went out to have steamboat with my bunch of friends...
we're bloated yesterday night but i went back earlier because i was too forgetful to left my
phone in Ai Leng's car so i have to get it back from her

i drive to another Steamboat house in Taman Teluk Intan... Finally when i reached there, i met Jing Theng, Eileen, Huey Soo, Yvonne, Mei Yen, Hui Ling, Ai Leng and also Suzanne... some of them were consider as 'long lost friend' because ever since SPM ended, i've never seen them before and just contacted each other through Facebook...

So i took this opportunity to snap down pictures with them as a memory....

at last i want to apologize to sin ink because i left so early but tonight will give it all to you.... hehe...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

is him...Raymond Lam again....

2009-05-28T13:55:00.003+08:00

reunion dinner

2009-05-16T00:10:00.004+08:00

does she looks like my sister??

Rene is going to Sitiawan for Form Six.... haigh....

well, i just came back from our so called reunion dinner
with Kerene, Ying, Venn and also
new member, Joanne...

we're so happy to meet each other
as we already didn't come out together for almost
2 months so we went to McD...

We went in and everything was fine
but there a group of idiotic people
that gave us a deadly glare once we entered....

here comes the worst part!!!! -:
this particular group started to do their stupid acts towards us,
they throw fries and even ice towards us!!!
Rene, Ying and i 'kena' the most..

i was like WTF are you trying to do... then i stood up and stared
at one of the guy then he quickly avoided from my glare.
we're like so angry with them and they just simply can't stop!!!

the fries they even put sauce on it!!!! Ying then walked towards them
and ask them had they had enough? then we just walked
away as we're civilized people...

its so coincident that i met jun fai and yew leong halfway so
i asked them to return to McD with us at least
they are guys....
because those seafood kids were too ignorant and IDIOTIC!!!!!

but when we return there, they went away already!!!!
so unfair!!! i want to buy water and splash them
let them know what's the feeling being disturbed!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!

let me show you some pic we took just now la!!!!!

live broadcast in class

2009-05-14T19:50:00.003+08:00

well!!! today my class having second exam...
it was a great happening where everyone in
my class cheered for what Yamuna did to someone in my class.

This happened in the morning around 8 something....

this particular girl sat on Yamu's place
so Yamu asked her to sit at her own place....
the way Yamu asked is consider as nice and soft
but she just simply ignored and even acted that she's DEAF!!!

she didn't bother to look at Yamu at all....
later Yamu decided to move all her things to the front desk..

when Yamu moved her table,
here came the best part~~~
this GIRL pushed the table onto the floor...
the table just fell right besides me...
i think if the table falls on me,
then I'm gonna teach that girl a lesson!!!!

Now Yamu became our class's heroin!!!!

basically, to me that girl is a bit dumb......
she can always overtake others place but why must
she sits at Yamu's place since she was quite hate her???

HAHA!!!!

a phrase that Yamu said was quite funny instead! :
eh, I'm talking to you la... I'm not even talking to the table, chair
or even the wall! Can't you just listen?~

:)

anniversary

2009-05-12T19:28:00.002+08:00

不知不觉，我念中六已经足一年了。。。
之前我还在犹豫要不要继续下去
但最后我也决定要努力！！！！！！！！！！！

说的比唱的来的好听。。。。
要做实在是难过登天！！！

一周年也让我感觉恐怕！！！
大考就要到了。。。。
我快要崩溃了~~~

人生就是如此。。。
要经过磨练才能成长。。。。

just this

2009-05-12T10:49:00.005+08:00

recently my idol Raymond Lam is going to hold
a concert in Hong Kong coliseum
soon in June....

So i went to youtube to view his videos
found a lot of funny videos of him
and how handsome he is!

hahahaha.....
i wanted to go to Hong Kong so much
too bad!!!
i cant!!!!

a shocking yet funny news

2009-05-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday there was a shocking news in
The Star paper.....

the headline sounded like this,
secretary broke her boss's penis.....

i was totally amazed with the headline....
this incident happened in Singapore....

the secretary was giving oral sex to her boss
in a car but suddenly
a reversing van knocked onto their car
and this particular woman
was too shocked with the crashing thus
she bite off his penis...

this was fucking gross because her mouth was
covered with blood and they was
both sent to the hospital...

it was unbelievable because the personthat
sent them to the hospital was
actually a private investigator that was
hired by this secretary's husband to check on her...
her husband sensed that she's being unfaithful
so he hired this person to
check on his wife
and it turned out to be such a funny and
weird situation....

i wish the boss best of luck.....

lesson learned = no oral sex in a car....

Blood Donation

2009-05-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

today our school had a blood donation campaign in the hall....
at first, i planned to just have a look
because I'm always low blood pressure
so i just looked at others doing it.....

later on, I'm inspired to do so after
listening to some of my friends
talking about it.
i went all alone to the hall
to donate blood....

i did all the procedures and lied on the bed
waiting for injection....
something funny was my friend around me
kept on talking nonsense to me
to distract my attention
from the needle...

but to me, the needle is just something
MINOR
compared to what i got last few weeks
on my knee....
i donated 350cc of blood and it turned out
i did not felt dizzy or something else.....
I'm happy that i donated my blood to needy persons...

actually, ever since I'm 16 i have thought of signing up as an organ donor
but too bad
my mom wasn't too agree with this
thus
i got to put aside what i wished....
i understand why did she disagree
so i just respect her and forget about it.....

just now, i went to the newly built cinema...
that was so much better compared to its previous state....
i like the cleanliness there...
but
if those customers can be a lil bit more civilized,
then i think it will be double thumbs up for
this new cinema....

X-Men Origin Wolverine was nice
and
the
effects were all well done....
just visit the cinema and watch it.....

International Understanding Day of Sasti Interact Club

2009-04-26T21:47:00.006+08:00

International Understanding Day of Sasti Interact Club finally
ended at 1 something in Angsoka Hotel's hall..

today i woke up 5 o'clock in the morning because
of the hall decoration.....

i went to fetch Melvin and Lip Ching
at around 5.50 am....

Phei Wen, Kit and I reached there at the same time.
We started off with cleaning the toilet
i mean other people clean it
and tested our projector.

later on we waited for the PA system from our
school's Senior Assistant of Co-curriculum...

finally around 10 am i went to kit's house to shower as
my house was a bit too far from the
hotel...

our event started at around 11.30
the kindergarten kids are so amazing in their dance and fashion show......
they were damn cute and performed very well..
everyone cheered for them....

then i would like to praise the Lim's siblings for
their wonderful dance...
All credits to Miss Phei Wen and her brother Chuan Min for their
dance....

Mei Kit's performance was the following
event....
they did a great job and i really wanted to salute
them because they used less than a week
for their dance practice but
ITS REALLY A NICE ONE.....

This IU was considered as a successful one
but IT BRINGS ME A LOT
of frictions with my family or even some friends
because it used up most
of my time...
currently I'm extremely tired!!!
FREAKING TIRED!!!!!!

thanks to all the guests that attended our function
today and our performers :
band members and the kindergarten kids....

Our Tee!!!!!

2009-04-22T21:42:00.004+08:00

girl's colour! we still have different colours just ask me if you want.
its for charity purpose so please do support....

guy's colour!!!!! got M and L size... charity pls do supprt

wow!!!!

we've finally saw the outcome of
our TEE!!!!!
it was a great job...
simple and nice!!!! let me show you the pix!!!!!

by the way, on the way to the factory today, i came across a funny lorry.....

look at the LORRY!!!! isn't it funny?
I'm wondering how the driver
drive?

Sucks

2009-04-21T18:30:00.002+08:00

why must you stepped into our life?
why must we met so many abnormal persons in form six?

do you know that you're bringing a lot of troubles?
so now you're the one who lit up the fire
so don't blame if it burned you up!!!

WE WILL BE THE FIRE....

IU day

2009-04-18T19:01:00.002+08:00

St Anthony IU Day

time: 11.00 am - 1.00 am
date: 26th April 2009
venue: Angsoka Hotel Hall
attire: Formal or Smart Casual

this event is for charity purpose so the
ticket is RM 10

those who interested
please contact me ya!!!!
hehe....

Declaration....

2009-04-13T17:34:00.002+08:00

Well, some of my readers do requested that i should post in
English!!!
my Chinese is also not good so I think
its better for me to stick with
English posting!

well, yesterday i went out for dinner with my bunch
of friends.....
We had our dinner in Lana and
something usual happened there....

We did our same usual action
whenever there's any celebration...
we snapped a lot of photos and i even
MOVED
the decor on the
counter table so that i can used that
counter as a stand for their cameras......

after that we went to Wen's house
and continue our photo session....
Will post the photos soon....

身体虚弱的我。。。

2009-04-09T12:29:00.002+08:00

在这个星期，我已经三天没上课了。下个月就要考试了！
但我的身体还是一样的没改变。
血压还偏低呢。。。
医生问我会不会是
读书有太大的压力。。。。
也许是。

一想到要考试了，整个脑袋都是
烦恼！！
有很多功课等着我呢!!
考试令人懊恼和担心。
时间不够用哦。。。
希望我的身体能慢慢的康复。
家人也为我烦恼与苦恼。
我不想看中医吃苦药。。。。。。。
今天的我算是比较好了。。。声音也渐渐的清晰了很多。。
之前说话好想蚂蚁叫而已。。。

我要努力与奋斗！！
我要以最好的状态来面对即将来临的考试！！！！

幸福呢？

2009-03-30T19:22:00.003+08:00

幸福就好像一粒玻璃球。

跌在地上碎了。

在他身边的人匆向他前

希望能拾到越多越好

手掌比较大的人就能拾得比手掌比较小的人多。

自要您有努力去拾，我相信无论多与少，

幸福也一样会出现在你身旁。

要记得哦

幸福,

一个人是拾不完的。

做人要知足。

幸福不是必然的，

记住要握紧每一片在你手掌里的幸福！！！

对那些拾到碎片但还没开花结果的

耐心的等待吧。

每人的遭遇都不一样所以别灰心！

拾错了也没关系

站起来在拾过啦！！！

说好的幸福呢？

去争取啦！！！！！

earth hour?

2009-03-29T21:20:00.001+08:00

Oh my god, TI people really not spiritual at all!
I think those family that really turned off their lights were only
5% of whole TI?
Can't believe that...
Then why must they advertise
so much on EARTH HOUR since
there's so few people look into this matter?

people tend to forget things real fast.
but I'm different I guess!
A lot memories since primary were still
fresh in my mind.
But i love primary so much
because everything happened were all HAPPY moments.
happiness is the thing that i hungered for the most
at this very moment.

LOVE kills!!
Human beings are unique because they have feelings!
but
as well they are much harder to handle!

打败将

2009-03-26T18:05:00.007+08:00

我又在生病了。。。别问我为什么我那么弱因为
连我自己也不懂。。。。
好辛苦哦。。。
连呼吸胸口都有像针割一样的感觉。。。
是心理作用还是真的痛？？

一天一天的过
一秒一秒的离去
人与人之间的相处
往往都不能以正常的角度去分析
有人永远觉得别人的付出是理所当然的
友谊或爱情有了裂痕要这么来补救？？
退后就是好大的让步？

期待的太多会有反效果？？
为什么如此？？
有人曾经告诉我人生就是一定要有希望
才能活的更有意义。。。
但我对希望这两个字
已经差不多到达了空无的阶段

为什么一颗用真诚对待人的心
往往要遇不到顶的珍惜它的人？？

哈哈！！！

有人说日出就是等于新的开始！
但愿我身边每个人天天都有新的开始！！！
每天都有意外收获！！！

Holiday

2009-03-22T19:03:00.002+08:00

It's being too fast for this whole week to come to an end!!!
that's too cruel because tomorrow morning
I've got to wake up at around 6.30 am.
life's a brief candle
time just passed too fast until i can't cope with it.....
before this, i told one of my friend that this whole week
will be a period of time for me
to get away
from a problem or matter
but now
it's the end of this whole week
so is it i have to look into this matter
seriously again?

but something too bad for this week was
both of my badminton 'kaki' went to NS training already.
i will pray hard for them to
enjoy and be careful in their camp!!!!
hopes to see them soon too.....
going out for dinner now...
bye!!!

this is a song that plays in my mind for this whole week....

游鴻明-愛我的人和我愛的人

盼不到我愛的人　我知道我願意再等
疼不了愛我的人　片刻柔情他騙不了人
我不是無情的人　卻將你傷得最深
我不忍我不能　別再認真　忘了我的人

＊離不開我愛的人　我知道愛需要緣份
　放不下愛我的人　因為了解他多麼認真
　為什麼最真的心　碰不到最好的人
　我不問我不能　擁在懷中　直到它變冷

＃愛我的人對我癡心不悔
　我卻為我愛的人　甘心一生傷悲
　在乎的人始終不對
　誰對誰不必虛偽

＠愛我的人為我付出一切
　我卻為我愛的人　流淚狂亂心碎
　愛與被愛同樣受罪
　為什麼不懂拒絕　癡情的包圍

2009-03-19T10:34:00.003+08:00

Event happened on 9th of March 2009!!!!　
a very memorable day for us!!!!
I'll remember every single
thing that happened on this day......
I'm sure you guys agree with me too!!!!!

2009-03-07T20:31:00.001+08:00

Just happened to visit Agatha's blog

and found out a test

so i just pressed

that link and

that's what

the test told me about myself

somehow, some part of it is true too!!!

so what do you guys think?

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

What I am.....

2009-03-06T20:24:00.003+08:00

Suddenly i felt very tired with form six life
especially what ever happened this year

just happened to browse through the photos we took since form five till now
and it was actually reminding me of every
happy and unhappy happenings throughout
our friendship.

This year too much things happened beyond my control
I've tried my best to control my feeling
but I think I'm just too bad
in doing so.....
I always thought I can withstand whatever that happened
but
too bad I could not anymore
that's just too tiring
and
boring I guess?
I know life should be challenging to everyone
but why mine was like
having a lot bumpers
every now and then?

I have a low gravitational pull
thus
I fell down easily.
though I look strong
yet I'm weak inside.
however
although you gave me a lot of bumpers
in my life
but
I'm still glad that you gave me a bunch
of
FRIENDS
that had accompanied me going through
every thick and thin in my life.
I'm pretty sure that
OUR
relation will never end
lastly,
I LOVE YOU GUYS
and this photo is dedicated to you all......

2009-03-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

Too free already.....
don't have other better things to do.....
and figured out a new program!!!!

A new Layout yet simple

2009-03-04T14:53:00.002+08:00

Just a bit too lazy to edit and find new blogskins from the website so i just choose
an easier and simpler!!!
Just bare with what I've changed....
Because
the most important thing is what I wrote.....

Astro Drama Awards 2008

2009-02-28T11:09:00.004+08:00

Hehe.... On 21st of February more than 10 TVB artists

came over to M'sia to attend an
award presentation event held in Genting...
They both won several awards in this event!!!!!

Another Raymond's MV screen shots
and
a magazine's photos!!!

Our craziest plus Funniest gathering.....

2009-02-28T10:55:00.006+08:00

Yesterday night
Kit, Ink, Wen, Chew and I
went out to gather because Chew is going back to Kampar today.
First, we went to T-corner as it was Chew's
ideal gathering place because as what Kit had said
in her blog, her house was nearby.
We took a lot of photos at T-corner.
Until other customers were looking at us awkwardly.
But their glare did not stop us from continue SS-ing....

Later, we went to McD to have our sundae cone!!!!
But WE did something CRAZY at McD.....
Everyone was wondering what happened in that
Nissan Extrail..

I'm looking at where?
pak toh-ing with wen.... :)
ice-cream!!!
the four of us In SASTI......
great time....
my chubby face!!!

my everlasting buddy since we're a foetus....
trying to fit into the camera....

three of us....

we're buddy for 13 years and it will last till end.... Kit!!

Still got some photos that I haven't
upload yet cause i scared my blog
will be flooded with all our SS-ing pix

nettlesome

2009-02-20T17:32:00.002+08:00

How can a person be so nettlesome?
why always followed me everywhere????
I'm getting more and more
fretful day after day!!!!!!!!!!!

metamorphosis!!!

2009-02-19T19:22:00.003+08:00

Don't question me about the title
of this post
because
i don't even know why i wrote that too.
anyway, I just so happen to flashback
some happenings throughout these few years.
metamorphosis as in only my
attitude i guess?

yesterday i received a message that i find it quite
meaningful as it was something about
friendship!!
when i read through,
i find it very unique to describe
friends as eyes.
though they didn't see each but yet
they blink together, sleep together,
cry together, see things together and move together too.
in this message,
there's a phrase that
I think it was very nice : -
A friend Loves you more than a Lover

but something came across my head after
reading it.....
who should i forward it to?
someone that owed me a 'sorry'?

what does a friend meant to you?
tease her for her weakness?
made fun of her?
never care for her feelings?
or just someone that you'll think of when you're in need?
i threw so many questions at the
end of this post because I'm still looking
for
an answer!!!!!!

An Enjoyable night between the Four Of Us Plus Lyn Mui

2009-02-17T20:17:00.004+08:00

just too busy to talk!!!! Let's see how i celebrated my Valentine's Day!!!!
Fun Valentine's Day with my ji muis!!!!

2009-02-10T18:20:00.006+08:00

well, this post is specially dedicated to Agatha Lim Shiang Lynn that asked
me to UPDATE soon. Once again, hi welcome back to myself.
Throughout the Chinese New Year i didn't post anything because
i'm busy dealing with my wealth luck [gamble] though
it didn't showed a GOOD sign of wealth.
now, i want to take this opportunity to wish every couple :-
Happy Valentine's Day!!!!
Next post i think maybe I'll post some pictures during last CNY....
I'm a bit too busy with assignments in school and
Interact Valentine's Project.

wanna buy handmade roses that could last longer?
wanna buy mouth-watering cupcakes for your beloved?
wanna have a couple bookmark?
interested pls inform ME!!!!![tomorrow will be the deadline]
DON'T MISS THIS OPPORTUNITY TO SHOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE FOR HIM/HER

Gong Xi!!! Gong Xi......

2009-01-25T13:27:00.004+08:00

hello everyone!!!
Happy OX year ya!!!!!
Hope all my friends and families stay healthy always!!
恭喜发财！！！财源滚滚来！！！

身体健康。。。万事如意。。。

最总要学业进步。。。。[to me]

My luck again haven't change?

2009-01-23T21:03:00.002+08:00

Oh my god!!!!!! I ate the ‘鸡蛋糕‘ that my mom made yesterday
then again something miserable happened!!!!
okay, let me explain... actually I'm growing one new tooth at the
back of my mouth.
then on the way I'm munching the 鸡蛋糕,
my GUM tore!!!!
and it bleeds....
how come? I'm just eating 鸡蛋糕!!!!!
Miserable right???
I also don't know what will the dentist do to me
tomorrow morning!!!
hope there's still dentist working....

My New Year Look for 2009!!!!! Quite a number of persons saw already i guess???

2009-01-21T22:37:00.004+08:00

haha.... i straightened my hair again!!!!!! *new look*

My New Year Look for 2009!!!!! Quite a number of persons saw already i guess

2009-01-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

2009-01-21T14:18:00.002+08:00

I'm dying soon with all my SEJARAH MALAYSIA, SEJARAH ASIA
TAMADUN DUNIA and TAMADUN ISLAM!!!!!!!
Piles of works need to hand in after Chinese New Year!!!!
I hope that I won't have that ONE WEEK holiday!!!
Torturing with all the WORKS!!!!!

What I am right now

2009-01-15T15:51:00.005+08:00

well, i know the title seems weird but that's what I'm gonna write down today.... i felt that my life is in so critical stage this few weeks. I've to gone through badminton training which I've quit for about five years long!!! so my whole body is like damn pain...

another things i got to say
was like why i always have such
ending?
didn't get the answer that i wanted?
why i always didn't get into the mood
to study?
life i so meaningless to me
i don't even know why am i breathing every second?
but what I'm grateful of was i still
have a bunch of 'ji muis' around me
which i find it was the best thing to me right now
next
CNY is just around the corner but i find
myself don't really happy for it.
maybe I'm under too much pressure.
STUDY is very IMPORTANT to me this year
because it affects my FUTURE?
I've tried to sort out some resolutions for this year but
i couldn't really make up my mind which
should come first!
so I gave up!
But at last i manage to come up with two BIG HOPES for 2009 : -
i hope everyone around me including all the human that i know
will be healthy and happy all the while.
secondly i hope to live a happy LIFE with no worries!
[though it seems hard but please pray for me ya]

tata!!!! LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!! :)

Flashbacks!!!!!

2009-01-10T13:33:00.007+08:00

Okay, i think i shall return to 31st Dec 2008 because we went to Mei Kit's house for our new year eve celebration a.k.a Cheesy Night!!! We cooked Cheese Baked Rice and also baked pizza!!!! So delicious but this meal contains a LOT OF CALORIES!!!! After that we went to Polly Watta to count down.....

everyone complaining not enough CHEESE.. But WHY? Now all thanks to OUR miss BEE KOON that eat while she's cutting the CHEESE!!!!

cutting foods or chatting le?

eh, mak cik YOU tau masak kah?

to be continue.......

part 2 :-

Yennie's birthday so happened to fall on 2nd January so we went to McD to celebrate for her. Too bad that Zhi Yin

couldn't join us but WE have Pui Xuen and Sam. They celebrated with us and we took a lot of photos there!!!!

that's all for my flashbacks!!!!! Keke....
Next posts will be something about my Penang trip and Mun Choon's birthday i guess? :)

First Day of Schooling..........

2009-01-05T20:10:00.004+08:00

Wow, today is my first day of schooling again... No much differences is just that now my class just left about 9 persons. Same as last year, I'm the class monitor but NO MUCH WORKS to do compare to those in Convent i guess? Luckily the teacher that taught us didn't have much changes also. I actually want to write about my new year eve celebration and Sze Yeng's birthday celebration but because I haven't get the pictures so maybe tomorrow or Wednesday I'll do some flashbacks.... That's all I want to write about my first day in school... Must really study hard starting from now!!!

2008's happenings

2008-12-30T23:45:00.016+08:00

Okay, i write this blog tonight just to wrap up what had happened throughout the year!!!!! But this year there's too much minor gathering i guess? So I'll just highlight some important event!!!!!!!

January

a normal gathering as usual and this was the first time i saw Mei Kit with her curly hair i guess!!!

Celine a.k.a B Koon's birthday :-
we planned a surprise for Bee Koon but too bad our Miss Wong Mei Kit forwarded a message about the planning to all of us including BEE KOON!!!! what a blur case.....
22nd Jan
first time drinking alcohol with friends i guess? I'm all red from head to toe!!!! can't lie to my mom also!!!

nothing much happened in Feb and March so I'll go to April now!!

APRIL:-
Wen's birthday......
We celebrated in Alfresco.... This was the first time i went to Alfresco with friends i guess??

May:-

Sin Ink's birthday celebration in Polly Watta and Clock Tower......

June:-
June was the month where Zhi Yin and Jo Venn were born in!!!!

July:-

i think July got nothing special happened also!!!!

AUGUST:-

Kit's birthday and something damn memorable happened to me during that day.. Saw something i shouldn't? Plus it was also our Installation Day....

SEPTEMBER!!!!:-

my birthday!!!!! The most memorable MSN conversation i had in this month!!!! very memorable yet a sad one i guess?

October:-
Raymond had a promo tour in M'sia but too bad that the date clashed with my cousin's wedding dinner so i can't meet him!!! So SAD but managed to purchased his Cd..

November???:-
I should have said it's District Interact Conference on 21st Nov - 23rd Nov... i knew a lot of new friends there.. They were Genie, Li Xuan, Phing Phing from Kl and Carmen, Ee Lynn, Natasha, Rachel, Renee and Ying Shu from Penang.....

I'm tagged by Rosalind

2008-12-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

♥ If you could spend one ringgit in 5 minutes, what would you spend on?
sweets i guess.....

♥ What is your most favorite thing to do?
EAT.... but too bad it's fattening!!!!

♥ What kind of news do you read?
i will say sports first, then the headline of the day and lastly some entertainment plus what show in cinema?

♥ What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
nothing.......

♥ Is there someone in your heart right now?
friends consider? KEKE

♥ Do you believe you can survive without money?
I can't... what about you?

♥ What are you afraid to lose the most?
health, anyone, $......

♥ What do you feel like doing right now?
REST

♥ If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
no idea about it

♥ List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
funny, naive i guess and pretty smart....

♥ What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
wow!!! that's too far right? anyhow just let the time tells me....

♥ What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
A SIMPLE YET KILLING LIE

♥ If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
chocolate.................

♥ If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
hello, sure I'll choose HAPPY!!!!!

♥ If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
already changed i guess but i have to said that is my temper that i hope to change?

♥ Who is the person that you can share all your problems with? All??
my close friends!!!!

♥ How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
a good question to me but yet i haven't really figure out an answer!

♥ What is the one thing you love about yourself?
try my best to help?

♥ If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world,what would it be?
friend or $? hahaha

♥ I tagged
kit
koon
yennie
carmen
renee
florence
agatha
sue voon

Chr!$m@S Ev3 P@rTy

2008-12-25T03:56:00.004+08:00

we're cousins for 18 years and i think this was the first photo

that we actually took together!!!!!

cleaning process

cleaning process at 1.10 am!!!

All of us....

Sherene and I

Me and the Christmas Tree!!!!!

Hui Shiong & Huei Ying

Wow, our party ended at around 12 something I guess. I went home at around 1.35 so they wanted to go drive thru again so I went with my friends!! so ended up I'm home at around 2 am in the morning!!! Kind of late to me cause when i drove i felt like the road is so QUIET and DARK!!!!! SCARY... now just let the photos do all the talking ya!!!!

Badminton Freak!!!!!

2008-12-23T23:53:00.004+08:00

I'm back from playing badminton again! But something different this time is that I played with Mei Kit they all! I think they laughed more than playing! And this was the first time i played badminton with Beng Synn lor!! Haha.... Plus Mike was like "How can you play badminton?"! He sounds like he couldn't imagine I played badminton quite well. I understand why la. It's because my body size doesn't convince him to believe that.! Plus I'm such a short person. If you know and seen me in real life then you'll know how short I'm!!!! really so fun because i sweat a lot! I like the feeling of sweating when i played badminton. If you didn't sweat then what for you play? After that i went to McD with Kit and her sister's gang. Now only I realized that people in TI doesn't sleep yet after 11pm? All went to McD for the sake of it's NEW!!!!wanna add something because Mei Kit and I WON the game with Beng Synn and Wai Nam!!!! So good!!!! haha!!!! girl rules!!!!

Another Day of McD

2008-12-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

I went to McD drive thru just now just because my sister and I felt like eating sundae cone. Then this time I'm clever already because I asked my mom to drive so that my sis and I will have plenty of time to finish the sundae! But again I met some stupid fellow!!! She went in the wrong way just because she want to cut queue and drive thru! But ended up she didn't order anything at all!! Then only i realized that she actually wanted to dine in! Then what for she queued for drive thru? Oh my god, i really can;t believe there's such people in TI!!!! I met twice!!! Some damn bad luck!!!!!

Happy birthday ya!!!

2008-12-18T01:31:00.005+08:00

can u guess what's this?

First of all I did something kind of funny tonight. Yi Leng, Hwa Lee and I planned a surprise for Kit Shyen but we told it was just a dinner gathering so end up we had our meal at Pizza Hut and kind of a lot of people. And we’re like talking something the fellows sitting next to us but they couldn’t understand what we’re talking about! That’s funny because they still managed to smile to us!

So after like at 11 something the Pizza fellow told us to pay for our meal then we paid la. After 10 more minutes, they turned off one of the lights then we decided to go home la. I sent Kit Shyen home first because this is really a surprise for her. Then I went straight to Yi Leng’s house to get the cake that we bought for her. Because Yi Leng said is kind of late plus scared can’t be like there on time. Then I drove faster but then Hwa Lee was like “It’s just 11.35 pm now! We go there so early for what?”!!! So at last we went to drive thru again! McD in TI seems to be a mamak stalls now! Everyone went there to ‘yum cha’! This is how Kit Shyen described about it! Funny. But then there was a damn pathetic car in front of me queuing up then turned out that the fellow didn’t bought anything! He just queued for the sake of queuing? I met Chui Venn, Wey Liy and Huey Shyuan there.

Now come the funniest part, we went to Kit Shyen’s house around 12.05 I guess then we lit the candles and I pressed the doorbell! Please imagine that Teluk Intan is such a small town. Everyone went to bed like almost 11 and I’m pressing her doorbell at 12 something? Luckily her dad hasn’t sleep yet and he told her that someone looking for her. She was like “Oh my god! I’m already in my pajamas lying on my bed!” then we went into her house and cut the cake! The present that they prepared for her was like damn and super funny! No one will expect that as a present I guess!!! That’s all and tonight I came back at 1 something. The feeling of driving so late at night is like so damn dangerous and scary plus my neighborhood is like very quiet that type!!!

McD

2008-12-17T00:37:00.004+08:00

wow!!!! our newMcD was like damn flooded with people!!! A lot of people! I went to drive-thru with Yi Leng then i just keep on pressed the brake-released-pressed again and again!!!! But it was funny that both of us sat in the car and ate our sundae cone and our McNuggets! So happy because we chatted for so long. It had been a long time that I've never chatted with her that happy!!! Haha!!!!!

I'm tagged!!!!

2008-12-15T19:19:00.001+08:00

Tagged by : Baby*kit

http://shortyz-kit.blogspot.com/

Rules:

1. Link to the person that tagged you.

2. Post the rules on your blog.　

3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.

4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.　

5. Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.　

6. Reply to me when you finish.

Ans :

Well, I hate smokers.
I hate sarcastic people.
I love to talk.
I love badminton too.
I’ll skip my meal whenever I’m moody.
Hate being betrays!

Now who’s the lucky one?

Carmen, Renee, Sam, Rence, Siow Wei and Agatha!!!

BaD Min ToN

2008-12-15T18:36:00.004+08:00

I just came back from playing badminton with Ee Venn, MeiYing-美丽的苍蝇 and Rene.....

Ee Venn and i today created our own record!!! We played like 183 strokes non-stop!

Felt like BadMinTon marathon. i keep on lift up my hand to hit the shuttle and it was pretty tiring...

I think I'm gonna BREAK this record soon!!! Venn, wait for me... We're going to break this record together!!!!!

Nothing special about today that i wanna record it down!

Just hope that everyone around me are healthy and Happy.. Last but not least, i would like to say "Lynn, Renee, Carmen, Rachel, Ying Shu, Natasha i missed you guys' laughter so much!!!

Same goes to my ji muis, Kit, Ink, Wen, Chew, Koon, Yennie and Jo Venn!!! :)

B a c k From KL

2008-12-14T18:24:00.003+08:00

Just reached my hometown just now. On the way back, it rains damn heavily! But I'm quite happy with this trip because i bought a new sneakers! Finally but yet I'm still quite upset with my previous sneakers!!! But i wont trash it yet! Haha....

The M@king 0f Homem@de Curry Puffs!!

2008-12-11T18:33:00.006+08:00

F R ! E D ! ! !

Done but haven't fried yet

haven't put in ingredients

After rolling

the eggs that i put into the curry puffs!

Today i woke up at 10 something in the morning and went to the grocery shop to buy my mom flour. she needs the flour for making curry puffs' dough! then when i came back i planned to help her at the back so i walked there. while I'm peeling off the egg shells, she suddenly yelled 'sei lor' then i was like "hur? what happened?"! then only i realized that the machine that we used to made the dough spoiled! So both of us got to mix and made the dough ourselves! This was my first experience of mixing flour and got to massage the thingy until it's not sticky! the thing is actually quite heavy and used up my energy to press and roll it repetitive! Tired!

I'm cutting the potatoes into cubic size!!

my mom chopping onion and I'm crying at the side