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荒岛上的我

at first, I thought of typing my blog in chinese but after few sentences, I gave up. better stick to my actual language, english.
this is already the third week i'm in this small island.

so far, nothing much about this place because it will still be the same and boring complaints. but today I realized that I'll actually face the problem of emotional breakdown too! Assignments are piling up in front of me yet I'm still in the relaxing mood! What a great student I am! seriously I need someone to talk with, but unfortunately I can't anyone free to listen to me. All my 'ji muis' seems very busy with their daily works. Even my own sister seems busy too and did not really bother to talk to me.

I know that i'm no longer a kids that need everyone's attention or someone to comfort but at least treat me as a human with feelings. I came all the way so far to a very strange place and yet I need to face everything on my own! Can't even find a better way to express myself! Am i torturing myself? I hate the feeling of emotional breakdown because it spoiled my mood thoroughly!
life in Uni isn't as fun as I thought it would be because it's way too far from my hometown. I'm feeling that the gap between Labuan and TI are growing every second! I couldn't get use to the distance yet.
Whatever I wanted to do is like something impossible because of that particular word, 'distance'!

how I wished I could travel through space in just 3 minutes to reach TI from Labuan. then I'll meet my mom every day whenever I like! I came here for about a month but it gave me a feeling that I've been here for at least 3 months! Maybe God wants me to learn more and to be tougher in facing obstacles. I'm really trying hard in getting used to the surroundings. just that at least I'm glad that I've a gang of new friends that can click quite well with me currently.

the heaviness of studying here is not just on the courses that I need to take but the biggest challenge is the life without water supply! last night I went under the rain just to carry a pail of water up to our house. What else that I need to do on my own? Almost everything!


finally I've found the mood to sleep now after expressing all out! I need friends but it seems too far yet too near here. TI, I'll be back in 4 months time.